Saturday, February 6, 2016


I don't know whether i should celebrate its almost fourth birthday or i should cry over it ,Yes my seasonal fast and furious flue has completed its almost four month and is about to enter in fifth month and reason behind it looks my bike ride every morning to my school in a very cold weather  as i am not  to it. It is my first winter to do so that is why flue caught me badly .

Though i am taking medicines but they are failed to stop it ,it only reduces for two or three days and then again sneezing and blowing nose ,I am just tired  of it,It seem while to feel and think normal,

Yesterday i had to go to my school twice once in morning for taking part in arrangements of Meelad function and once in evening to attend the function,but due to horrible mental condition i thought that i will hardly be able to visit once only so with the permission of my  principal  i did not go in the day time as my principal said being attend in evening time is more important  then  morning.

So i went in night and how i made myself sit with blowing nose and cold its another story but with my phone i took few pics of participants and two of my students who looked who came along their parents. Aren't they adorable . 

Thursday, January 28, 2016

Love has many shapes

love has so many shapes ,It  gives one's life aim to live .When we survive in very hard situations it is only love which makes it possible.Though love for one's own life is very natural and understandable facet but love for others is really complicated thing to understand.What i think of it is that love for others is deeply related with love  of one's own self .

In this world where people like Hitler and Darwin existed ,Mother Teresa  and Nelson Mandela also hold their place.the reason behind the efforts of both kind of people was the love ,Former were in love with themselves and later were in love of themselves too.Yes i am right though i have not studied psychology but i am intend to do it very soon and i am pretty much  sure that my guess will prove right.

I think people who love themselves spread more love.People who are favorite of their own they are more satisfied with everything around them and have very easy going nature,but  people who though unconsciously don't like themselves are terrible and tough for everything around them.It is very simple to understand that i can give only what i have in my  it is very very important that one must have first love for his or her own self.

Without love no single day can be passed.It is love of life that make us awake early in the morning and take us to our jobs.Many people are deeply in love with their works they do,they don't care  for time and relations and even their own health they   just work  because it gives them sense of achievement from which they get pleasure of  proving themselves so here comes again love of one's own being.

I have since my childhood love for learning.I still remember that in my childhood when i buy some thing to eat wrapped in piece of news paper or magazine i always try to read and understand it .I still have my notebooks where i used to write such interesting thing collected from them.Though i was average student but i know that if i would have suitable environment i could have achieve more in my life  especially   talking about studies.As i am a mother of grownup boy who does job and two younger go to school ,i still have love for more studies and want to die on my favorite study table with book in my hand. 

Sunday, January 24, 2016

True Love

Love is most precious gift to the soul of  person,life cannot be imagined without love, And world will be a desert without it where everyone will stay unconnected to eachother like sand particles .No bounding of relationships will exist and no emotions like sincerity and dignity will be seen in this world where inspite of all kind of hatred  ,fights and misunderstandings Love still occupies  its place in each heart and  regulates its beat according to its own rules and regulations.

Since i started being in my conscious i realized that i have a serious , irresistible  and unconditional love for life ,my creator and everything about life . This love never ends no matter how hard treatment i receive  from life or people.In my early life  my brother gave us quite tough time as he was completely against of our schooling ,he said that girls should not go to school and they should get married at their teen age,but my mother sent us school standing against him and her own brothers,during our school years many times my brother created problems and even burnt our bags and books .In those times i though that i will hate my elder brother for my whole life and never see or talk to him again.

But later after many years when my brother had an accident me and my younger sister financially supported him for long time.i prayed for his well being with tears in my eye and pain in heart.Thank god that he has recovered now and running his family life successfully.

One of my friend who got married third time made me think lot about definition of word love.Her love is really strange to me as when she met her first husband before marriage she fall in love with him like a made girl and inspite of it hhat her family was against this marriage she choose him for her and i still remember how much she was fond of him.they were truly made for each other ,my friend used to pampered him like a child.But strangely marriage ended suddenly when couple was at honey moon trip in other country.I was just shocked and speechless when i heard this.

When i met her i asked her how? and why? and she replied with normal accent that he was my mistake ,he does not deserve me,i was surprised that she was not sad or panic   at all.Then within a year she fall in love again and with same madness,couple enjoyed almost less then two years together with love and passion but again i heard  about their separation ,though her husband and friends like me  tried very hard to protect their family unit as they were parents of two children now one girl and one boy but my friend did not agree and finally she got divorced.

On our next meeting  my questions were same and her answers were not much different then before,except two sentences that  i dont love him any more as i realized that he was not my ideal as i thought he will be.Later i thought upon her views ,to me she seemed holding a shell of a model which she wants to  fill with the mud of someone's personality and if it goes slightly unmatched she become disappointed and get away with her shell to find out perfect match of it ,Its been quite long time that we did not meet but still in touch,recently she told me that she found her mister right and got married ,hope this time it makes a perfect match.

Everyone has his own perspective about love and mine is that if you have a heart which has ability to love someone it means you have ability to love everything around to me is not a business of give and take or a game with terms and conditions ,if you have a loving heart you are unable to hate anyone even someone who have  hurt you.Love makes your I.Q so wide,it gives you wisdom and strength to ignore others mistakes,If you have this gift you truly enjoy your existence.It enchants and vibrates you life and you feel completely alive.

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Rise of will

Air  flowing through the valley ,
without making any noise ,

standing on the hill ,
I am watching sun rise,

Slowly on tip toes ,
Rays crawling here,there ,

Earth's darkened face,
Became bright and fair,

In the ears of trees ,
Sun's golden advise ,

They are dancing with the joy,
My heart realized,

Birds sitting on the branches,
Singing joyful song,

Stream's glittering smile,
Said nothing will go wrong,

Then why did i think that may be not,
Has new kind of puzzle day just brought?

Its easy to be a butterfly and fly over flowers,
And hard to be a man and work for 24 hours,

But pearl of victory is hidden in the hardships,
A drop is like an ocean to a dry lips,

So finally emotions defeated the reason,
I will take this challenge,i made a decision,

I returned home with new power of will,
my inner world became peaceful and still.