Judgement Sunday

on Sunday, November 29, 2015

Day is running like a fast moving train and since morning i am floating like  a boat in a stormy ocean  of  business which is  treating me like a string though still i am enjoying its wild treatment by remembering this famous quote that God tests our capabilities according to our strength ,he never put burden on our shoulders which we are not able to carry

Since morning when i started my house chores things were randomly wandering in my mind while hands were busy in routine works like cleaning, cooking ,washing utensils and laundry until then my son called and informed that he is about to leave for his some kind of test and need my prays.we talked for quite a while and i wished him best of luck for his task.After this chat i felt better and more energetic,in my mind things took a pattern.

I remembered the time when my eldest son born and i took him in my arms ,i never thought  that one day that little baby will be as mature and  only friend of mine.He is the first person who told me lot of things about me which i found true and could relate to them easily.he told me that i am really a simple person who relate herself to everything and person such an easy way which is hard to trust and acceptable for people of today as when you relate yourself so honestly to others it becomes other's responsibility too that they respond to your emotions  with equal respect and honesty  and this thing fears them that they will not be able to carry such burden so they keep themselves away from you and in result you stay alone,

When he got scholarship he said  ami its all because of your great attention and care ,when he got job he said ami you are the reason that i am successful today, He always encouraged me for self grooming and everything that makes me happy such as to get more study,blogging and job.Instead of his father who always advises to be a diplomatic to achieve success in all kind of relationship my son always said me that i should not lose  my inner innocence and to always be myself .I feel myself so blessed to have such caring son.

While working house chore i remembered my school principal who was very first person after my mom who loved me and in my whole school time always gave me especial attention.She was inspired by my love and devotion for study and writing skills.She gave me great confidence by offering writing short plays , funny acts  and poetry for different occasions in school.It was her effort that i was able to write for Radio Pakistan,latter  after marriage and after many years when i went especially went to meet her She was promoted to be a head of many school ,she took no time to recognize me and offered government job with just my matriculation but then i could not manage to live away from my husband's city.But her love and affection is still in depth of my heart as a strength of confidence.

Meanwhile i remembered  my boss the principal of  my school where i teach now,she is nice Filipino lady who owns and supervise the school,i liked and respect her as she is successful career woman and wonderful mother to me.though few of my colleagues complains that she has no care and respect for her staff but still i think she has benefit of doubt such as may be her carelessness about her staff is due to her less socialization as like me even more then me she is stranger to people around her and cannot relate well to them,i often found her nice and kind and that is why inspite of being new employee of her i put some education related suggestion   before her which though did not seem to accept yet her attitude was encouraging,personally i think she need to think more widely and listen  to her staff patiently  as betterment is always needed everywhere.

It is almost dark outside and i missed my evening prayer too.Now i have to end this post and rejoin my chores again preparation of dinner and ironing are the remaining tasks.life is beautiful and really short with no prediction of death warrant so everyone please be happy and spread happiness god bless.            


A peaceful Good Bye

on Sunday, November 22, 2015

Hey friends hope and pray that all is going wonderful in your amazing worlds and if there is some thing little is out of control you got guts to handle it  well.Here in my ears coming winter is singing cool breezy songs which we used to enjoy with hot cup of tea or coffee ,

Today's sundry did not start like normal sundrys ,instead of  getting up at almost 9 am we had to awake   early in the morning at 7 am and started getting ready for small journey which we were making to attend the funeral of   12 years old grand daughter of my sister in law  who died yesterday.Since her early age she suffered from blood cancer and after every one month blood was given to her for survival.I was expecting her family especially her mother much crying as usually in our culture people do.

But when i met her mother she seemed quite normal with positive thought as she told us that they were already informed by doctors that  child  will hardly manage to live after 12 or maximum 15,years. Inspite of being aware of this fact and being belong to a middle class family her parents tried hard to support their child and anyhow managed to purchase blood for her every month.

The attitude of her mother inspired  me alot because usually we dont see  such  broad way of thinking here ,often at such occasions people cry aloud and complain loudly to God that why did he do this to them and they go on and on with this unpleasant and negative way of thinking.

In our society i felt the exhibition of  emotions just to show others that how  sad they are feeling right now.I am not criticizing   the true sense of loss or sadness of close relations,but the overflowing of extra show off  of other relatives who  though dont have a single tear in eyes yet make loud noise to register their fake cries.

Ignorance is the base of all such nonsense and such nonsense is spread all around us in various shapes  now a days ,it has taken over the souls of people who spend all their lives to make others realize that how high status of life they occupied or how highly educated they are.
.Education in here is just having degrees in hand which  is way to get a job and that's all.Real awareness does not even touch their mind and soul. True awareness and know ledge which enlightens the heart and soul and brings revolutionary positive change in life and take us away from all such low standard thinking
.Then we able to think just for ourselves not in selfish way but in a way that it is important that what is our own value in our life and we have to make satisfy just ourselves not others.We dont have to put ourselves front of others for judgement but we should judge ourselves by our own.God bless you all    


Paris We Love You

on Sunday, November 15, 2015

whenever i think about this huge universe i realize that world existing on earth is really  a tiny piece of  this whole huge mechanism.living on this wonderful planet is a blessed experience as it is full of countless beautiful natural phenomenon  which not only fulfill our physical needs but deliver peace to our soul's desires. 

being human  i can feel the blessing spread around me which showered our creator upon us, i  really really cant understand that why we all people live this beautiful peacefully and why cant we people share this earth happily ,since the beginning time has proven that no matter how hard we try we cannot live forever and no matter how crucially we crush others for our timely benefits we cannot prevent ourselves  from horrible damage  and destructive result.

Last night heard in news about terrorists's  attack on world's most beautiful and famous city  Paris which always fascinated  me as a city of love and fashion.I saw it only in movies and it always attracted me towards it .I wished to visit it at least once   in life time.that news shocked me as it was my own homeland and as people belong to it were belong to me and so close to my heart.

I cried  because the pain of loosing our love ones hurts a lot.whatever is happening is condemn able ,today  almost we all know the new strategy owned by new leadership of the world who is playing like a puppet in the hands of world's strong business men ,They are ordering everything according to their own advantages. World has appeared for them just their market where they create situations to sell their stuff  well. Humanity has no meaning for them and their love ,life and religion is just one thing Money ,And to achieve this end they can cross the all limits of humanity and act like a bloody monster  who can crush everything under his huge powerful feet to secure his lust of power and position .

They brainwash  innocent minds and use them to  kill innocent people ,though some do such terror for the sake of  money or luxurious life,and at other hand some do it for the sake of heaven, though they dont deserve even God's hell but even worse then that.

I  am just a housewife who just started a teaching job to explore my inner energies and to make
myself happy with this revelation but when such accidents  encounter i become very sad ,though try not to lose hope in humanity and faith in creator and rules of nature but it hurts a lot as if heart will stop for while and as if i will not be interested  in taking  one more breath ,It happens when i replace them who were suddenly dragged out of their joyful worlds and were shot without knowing that what did they do to deserve it.

Don't know i will be able to see pairs my dream city or not but my heart wishes best for it and my prays  ask for peace and happiness from god amen.


convocation and memories

on Thursday, November 5, 2015

hey dear friends ,hope and pray that all is going smooth and nice in your beautiful worlds,last week i went Karachi to attend my son;s   convocation  and had blast of pleasure and enjoyed each single moment of that two days which i spent with my son ,after two days me and my son had to rejoin their jobs so we got back to our town ,yes my both younger kids also visited their elder bro joy party but at return we got little dis heart ,wanted to be together forever but life has different plans and place chosen for us ,we can just wait for that moment when we all will be at on place and be a complete happy family,these emotions created a little poem sharing with you all,have a lovely safe life god bless you all.

Trees are shy and air is bold ,
coming winter's day is cold; 

Touched my cheek when a sun ray,
gave  me the sense of my mom's kiss;
before leaving for the school got every day,

There were the days ,when all were close, 
Hearts of our's like blooming rose,

How joyful  was atmosphere,
When we used to everything share,

When kept my head in mama's lap,
All my miseries  took some gap,

Having my little sister's hand ,
flying like a butterfly on the land,

When i see my yard;s neem tree,
Comes in mind my happy family ,

Though all is well and everything is right ,
present is pleasant and future is bright ,

But still whenever i feel tired  low,
Memories give me strength and glow,

Memories like a butterfly,
Takes my heart so high and high,

So everybody please take good care ,
keep your life so nice and fair,