strange death

on Monday, June 10, 2013

hey,friends,hope all is going cool and smooth in your amazing worlds,my son is home for vacation so connecting with you friends through his laptop for little while,missed reading all of you  so much




life is work of art,just thiread this line in my recent book and foud it most perfect defenation of life,in my forty two i was not awear of it ,just lived mostly by soul,loved everything about life,and never stayed for long in darkness of disopinment when life felt shaky,i did not realized that i am blessed with quite positve attitude towards life,

whenever found someone disharted ,tried to cheer with pleasant words ,long ago during my job i used  

to hear so many sad stories from my colleagues which they told me according to them because i was trustable person who will listen them with soul ,will feel their pain,and will not make jokes of them in their absence ,
such things were base of my life,i been told so so manytimes by my surroundings that with such simple nature  i will not be able to survive anywhere,whether relationships or job,and it was even half true,but i still see the ful side of glass,

after depature of my both parents i did not think that their partition will disolve in my soul,i dont know how much i miss them ,or,i miss them or not,but i am facing a strange death ,the death of excitement ,its been more then a year that i became a quite different person from one i used to be for my whole life,i miss myself friends,its not that i am awayy from normal life or family,all is good ,i talk ,laugh,do everydays' work but nothing cheer my inner world which seems under kind of spell,


and one question fears me most that i,s this spell ever be broken?


still i am preparing for my master,i dont mind to die but i love live and all about this precious gift,and belive in betterment till its last breath,

have blessed life friends,


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see you soon inshaallah

on Saturday, January 5, 2013

hey friends my sister was hee 4 20 days but her and my kids kept us so busy and i could not post through her laptop ,she is leaving tomorrow,but i hope i will have my own pc soon n wll be able to be with u guys inshaallah,let me say again my favorite line that life is beautiful and we must enjoy every moment of it ,and no matter what happens always should remember that our creator loves us more then anybody so we must be gratefule for each single blessing we have,and step ahead without wasting time in complaining and believe me our positive attitude turns the all bad in good,stay smiling,god bless u all.


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thank u 4 being with me friends

on Saturday, December 29, 2012

hey dear friends missed soooooooo much being with yourright now writing from my sister pc.i am grateful for your kind words and sport,my dear mom is resting in peace in the world where we all have to go one day,may dear lord shower his love and peace upon her soul,me and my sis miss her and try to follow her principles of life in life to make our lives strong and useful for our families. i have passed my ba in nice grads,and looking forwared for ma digree,hope you guys doing great and along all doings enjoying your doings too as love makes the each job worship and worship is the basic need to lighten our soul,i will be with all of you soon friend ,wishing you guys best in life have a wonderful life ,god bless u all.
r



 


 


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on Wednesday, December 26, 2012

pray for her

on Friday, September 30, 2011


hey dear friends,life is strange and has so many colours to surprise us,it seem just few days back when i used to spend my whole time close to my mother,my life and thoughts moved only around her,even while playing with my girl friends in the fields in childhood i could not stop thinking about her,

believe me i waited for her orders so i can obey her and make her please,in my teens i always thought that after finishing my studies i will get the job and will always stay with her,in my dreams i saw the future when i will be able to support her for all her needs,

may be this attitude was the result of cold war between my parents which i realized since beginning of my conciousness ,but as we know that destiny has its own plans for us ,so during my matriculation when i got seriously ill and could not attend my school for almost two months i lost my science subjects and it was the time when i heard the voice of broken dream,

because of this after my school i could not get my desired job,though later i got government teacher post but till then my brother and his wife made the situation worse and under such pressure mother said me good by with the tag of arrange marriage,

although god blessed me with a wonderful friend as husband,but i still missed my mother always,after my first child i again joined her as she was very lonely when my sister left for usa,i stayed there four years and served her as i could,

i have shared it lots of time but today it is different friends,i got call form sister that my dearest mother is very sick and i have to leave today to see her, actually i want dear god to give her some more time to stay with me i want to hug her tight and dont want o let her go ,i want to take care of her as she did of me,i wish i can roll back the time and fill her weak body with strength again, i know i can do none of them as i am just a tiniest piece of universe but still my heart is shouting for it,

dear friends i am expecting from you to remember my mom in you prayers ,so everybody take great care ,,fight for ur rights until you win,never loose the heart,keep smiling,and have blessed life.god bless you all.


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16 comments:

NRIGirl said...
So sorry to hear about Mom Baili. Be assured she will be in my prayers. Stay strong!

Love you!
wintergurl said...
stay strong dear , GOD bless you
rama said...
She is in my prayers too, don't worry. I will pray for you too.
Aulawi Ahmad said...
yah such was the life :)
SprigBlossoms said...
My best wishes for her. You are a wonderful daughter to her :)
Aries said...
Yes! Mum is the greatest, from giving birth to nurture and worried about us all the time. Have a nice day to you
....Petty Witter said...
Hi, dropping by to say hello. Best wishes to you and yours.
NRIGirl said...
Hi Baili! Hope all is well at your end. Has been a while since we last heard from you...
jenny said...
I'm always missing my mom. Take care of her while she's still there. :) God bless Shabana! :)
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A said...
I am sorry. I am late. Your mom is in my prayer. You wrote a very good post - very good tribute. If you get a chance, read my posts on mom - my daughter wrote on poem on her mom.
Shama said...
Hey Baili where you gonna lost?? everything alrite??
em worried - my blog is missing you - please come back :(
please inbox me your cell number - wanna speak up to you. love xx

shama.ahsn@gmail.com
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Cee S. said...
Hi Shabana, it's been a year since your last post. I hope all is well with you and your family! I miss reading your deep thoughts.
baili said...
hey dear friends missed soooooooo much being with yourright now writing from my sister pc.i am grateful for your kind words and sport,my dear mom is resting in peace in the world where we all have to go one day,may dear lord shower his love and peace upon her soul,me and my sis miss her and try to follow her principles of life in life to make our lives strong and useful for our families. i have passed my ba in nice grads,and looking forwared for ma digree,hope you guys doing great and along all doings enjoying your doings too as love makes the each job worship and worship is the basic need to lighten our soul,i will be with all of you soon friend ,wishing you guys best in life have a wonderfull life god bless you all,
r

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