dont know what to write ,my father died about 15 days ago,but i could not be informed by some reasons,so i could not be able to say him good by for his last journey, felt so much empty ,weak and breathless and was on bed for few days,
he was 64, but sick for two and half years,i kept him with me for one year and took good care of him, but about 8 month back he wished to visit his home back in village,so my husband took him there,where mom insisted to keep him along her,
i always found him so calm and quite person and too helpful for everyone around,
one thing about him amazed me always that he seemed always so light and angerless ,even when when my mother felt quite in bad mood,but he never answered her badly but only a smile and cheerful words.
he was not with us for many years ,after him we faced so many miseries in life but still could not hate him and when he came back to us we were happiest family on earth,
but life always play games with you,it defeats you when you think that you have won the battle,
i wish we could stay along for much long or could roll back the time when we were kids and mom and father were always there for us to share each big or small joy and pain of life.
my mother seems so silent and still after him,some time it fears me,right now i find myself her mom and want to wash away her all sadness forever with my big tight hug,
thanks dear friend for sharing my heart,god bless you all.