Monday, April 25, 2011

will be missing you always father



hey friends,

dont know what to write ,my father died about 15 days ago,but i could not be informed by some reasons,so i could not be able to say him good by for his last journey, felt so much empty ,weak and breathless and was on bed for few days,

he was 64, but sick for two and half years,i kept him with me for one year and took good care of him, but about 8 month back he wished to visit his home back in village,so my husband took him there,where mom insisted to keep him along her,

i always found him so calm and quite person and too helpful for everyone around,

one thing about him amazed me always that he seemed always so light and angerless ,even when when my mother felt quite in bad mood,but he never answered her badly but only a smile and cheerful words.

he was not with us for many years ,after him we faced so many miseries in life but still could not hate him and when he came back to us we were happiest family on earth,

but life always play games with you,it defeats you when you think that you have won the battle,

i wish we could stay along for much long or could roll back the time when we were kids and mom and father were always there for us to share each big or small joy and pain of life.

my mother seems so silent and still after him,some time it fears me,right now i find myself her mom and want to wash away her all sadness forever with my big tight hug,

thanks dear friend for sharing my heart,god bless you all.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

steal



smile......, i need some light,

my sorrow,will become delight,

lets go for walk, or ride on cloud,

let us both sing a song of joy so loud,

as much loud that,all the skies should hear,

must be raining, lightning must be appear,

lets we dance on silent floor of sea,

take my hand and getup ,if agree,

or hold hands and walk on endless road,

as since yesterday, feeling little board,

why not, building castle on the beach,

over there,where waves cannot reach,

we can just sit and talk under tree,

can you imagine feeling as much free,

stop all doings,and should just take a break,

sitting beside and putting feet in lake,

sharing heart and sharing tears, smiles

from the busy life,must be stealing WHILE,


Tuesday, April 12, 2011

magic stick



spring has delivered so many colorful smiles to the face of earth,and one just stick on my lips since i am looking at my small garden so fulfill and bloomed,

it is almost 10 am,kids left for school and my husband is gone to his office,every morning when i wakeup every one seems in so hurry,i am in love with such moves and sounds who makes me feel more active and give me pleasure to support my family for their busy lives,

i except challenge of time and mostly succeed to sending everybody on time,

when they are gone house become just still and silent,like a fast noisy train just crossed the station, and left the silence behind,before starting house chores i take my mug of tea and sit beside the garden,it always makes me cheer and vanish all loneliness,

freshness in air is getting through the soul and delivering the peace and joy,sky is shiny blue and birds are enjoying their full of fun flights,i just watered the plants,so their glittering fresh faces are seeming happy and excited,

in such times i always feel like life is complete and has no desire,but it is not just true life always has space to add more betterment,especially to me it is more about mental health,

some time i really wish i could have an magic stick, and with its one move i could change the way of thinking of the whole world,so all kinds greed ,fights, jealousy and bitterness could be thrown away,

and sometime i just say myself to grow up,because it is not possible until the world exist,as humans we are bound to our personal benefits and to protect them we encounter all such negative emotions through out the life,

but dear friends it is cruel realty that we use these emotions even when its not necessary,its just our huge EGO which become larger then us often,and makes the atmosphere negative around,

when i see some years back people were not as irrational and loose temper,in my village there were lots of families who used to share one large house through generations and face all ups and downs together,

there were deferences but living together was not allowing people to be angry with each other for much long,my grandma always said that if you want two people to forget their anger and reunion them,just make them sit front of each other and see in each other's eyes ,you will see they will smile after a while and will be friend again,

i tried it so many times and it worked always,i believe that nobody can hate anybody,its just a timely situation and mood which creates the misunderstandings, and we just keep it on and on so little brick change in huge wall and we just sit silently against it and wait for other to come and say a one single word SORRY,our ego does not allow us to be first even we want to,

why are we so weak and be puppet in hands of our stupid ego,why we easily forget all good time and things we shared together,why we get ready to loose our good friend for nothing,

it seems that we all just became abnormal,little things makes us disturb and make this precious life miserable,

i witnessed it in highly educated people more then people with less knowledge,people who read heavy books live luxury lives and stay far from practical basic beauties of life as warmth of relationship or love and bounding ,become more depressed and over sensitive,such people suffer with Superiority or inferiority complex and lead a very unhealthy living,

instead of them people who taste all beauties of life and live it with its practical challenges stay normal and enjoy the every color of living, they do fight but dont stretch it so far,their healthy thinking makes all heavy moments short and light,they take it as part of daily life,and always remember each other's positive things more.

life is short and can end in any moment without warning,so why not just live it the moment with is all peace and beauty and the deep sense of gratefulness for our creator.


Saturday, April 9, 2011

got an award


today i want to thank dear NRIGIRL who honored me with versatile award for my blog bailiandi, thank you NRIGIRL its so sweet of you, now seven things about me which i have to mention are,


1 during the school days,i was always best in every thing except my horrible hand writing,my teachers used to adviced me often to make it better because they dont wanted to decrease my marks,but still its not great.

2 i used to have same dream in which i am standing beside the well,and then an eagle comes and hold me in its beak,but i am happy and enjoying flying over the fields instead of being afraid,

3 back in my village in my childhood i used to swim in stream but as i grew, water became my fear especially deep one,

4 about 30 years ago i lost my older brother,he was most intelligent and active kid i ever saw, he studied till fifth grad even when he was hospitalize,i still miss him so much in deep,

5 i dont like cities and artificial features,i would love to live in village where every thing has its original beauty and simply graceful,

6 i have a strange fear about snake,i believe one day i will be bitten by snake because in my village i killed five or seven of them,which we encountered in our village home in summer seasons especially,

7 as i am growing old i think i am getting more close to creator ,it is a feeling which makes me feel out of the world,i cannot define it.


now i am passing this award, even my all friends are well deserve but i have to chose only three,here are the names,





thanks for sharing my joy, have a nice day everybody,god bless you all.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Message of The Nature




when i see around me carefully i find that there is some invisible force exist who is beyond the time and limits, he created us with great love and blessed with an automatic machine called BRAIN,it absorbs the knowledge from surroundings and and turn into a wisdom.

it seems that everything in this universe is just to help it work better even all body parts too,i mean the biggest curiosity of the creator seems that HOW DOES HIS EXPERIMENT GOES AND HOW MUCH HE SUCCEED IN IT?
he made such so many and put them in the game called life,every game has laws and rules ,so he must briefed every one with them but it was not possible to give each one a separate book of laws so he created a BOOK OF NATURE,and explained all his rules and laws in it,

book of nature is full of signs,every inch of it teach us that how can we lead a healthy ,happy and useful life.

this book has countless messages for us,and a very first is that we are very especial to our creator , he loves us sooo much and it is proven because everything as human we need since beginning and will need even after centuries he has arranged for us in this universe,

the second most important message is that every thing in this huge space need support of another thing to make its existence meaningful here,whether it is a tiniest tissue of human body or an atom of matter,

third unique message is that love is base of every creation ,but balance and care is the most important substance for its successful survival ,
scientist says that up in the space countless huge bodies are revolving and crossing each other regularly since the beginning of this universe ,often they are so close to make a blast which can destroy the whole galaxies in a minute ,but it never happened yet, because every thing is as well organized and balanced there, aren't these signs that love ,care and balance are the guarantee for stable existence of anything small or big,

another message of nature is that everything is moving in circle,if we see water from the ocean gets up through the air in the shape of vapors,turns into the clouds and rains , then gets back down to the earth,and it travels through the rivers to join the ocean again,

this sign give me hope that after leaving my body i will not be just disappeared ,but will change in some other form of life,may be though,

babies of all other creatures start moving and walking instantly except human,why ,because creator want to give us time to feel each other's love and store it in our the memories,these emotions differentiate us from other creatures and make our living beautiful by bounding us together forever,

creator could have make everything with like a magic just unreasonable ,but he is smartest, he gave every existence a REASON,and invited us to TAKE A LOOK ,THINK, AND UNDERSTAND IT,

book of nature want us to be responsible for what we have around us,it shows us that jungles are the greatest source for purifying the oxygen, and holding the earth strong for us,but we could not get it,

a little seed turn into a shady tree ,it tells us that very small investment of love,care and time can turn in a huge source of peace and joy,

oceans are huge amount of water,but we cannot drink it,until it travels through the filter system of creator,it is sign that he love all his creations equally and basic need of life air and water is not under particular hands,

spring says that result is BEST when the balance is arranged,otherwise summer and winter are the two different colors of seasons,
but still there are few flowers which shows that they can bear every mood of season and can bloom forever.
messages of nature are countless and only for wise,and none of us is unblessed,just need to realize that there must be little portion time to read book of nature in our own company in 24 hrs a day.