Friday, September 30, 2011

pray for her



hey dear friends,life is strange and has so many colours to surprise us,it seem just few days back when i used to spend my whole time close to my mother,my life and thoughts moved only around her,even while playing with my girl friends in the fields in childhood i could not stop thinking about her,

believe me i waited for her orders so i can obey her and make her please,in my teens i always thought that after finishing my studies i will get the job and will always stay with her,in my dreams i saw the future when i will be able to support her for all her needs,

may be this attitude was the result of cold war between my parents which i realized since beginning of my conciousness ,but as we know that destiny has its own plans for us ,so during my matriculation when i got seriously ill and could not attend my school for almost two months i lost my science subjects and it was the time when i heard the voice of broken dream,

because of this after my school i could not get my desired job,though later i got government teacher post but till then my brother and his wife made the situation worse and under such pressure mother said me good by with the tag of arrange marriage,

although god blessed me with a wonderful friend as husband,but i still missed my mother always,after my first child i again joined her as she was very lonely when my sister left for usa,i stayed there four years and served her as i could,

i have shared it lots of time but today it is different friends,i got call form sister that my dearest mother is very sick and i have to leave today to see her, actually i want dear god to give her some more time to stay with me i want to hug her tight and dont want o let her go ,i want to take care of her as she did of me,i wish i can roll back the time and fill her weak body with strength again, i know i can do none of them as i am just a tiniest piece of universe but still my heart is shouting for it,

dear friends i am expecting from you to remember my mom in you prayers ,so everybody take great care ,,fight for ur rights until you win,never loose the heart,keep smiling,and have blessed life.god bless you all.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

love yourself



hey friends hope all of you are celebrating your victory against time,
each step you take up for next try is a victory because dreams give you desire but it is always a effort which leads you towards success,

day is beautiful ,airy and bright as always,today i want to share a story of graceful lady whom i met long time ago when moved from village to the city and took a side portion of upper story of a huge house on rent,that sweet lady was the daughter in law of her land lady,the lady must be really pretty in her youth,she was 70 plus,but still active and smart,behind her thick eye glass she possibly can reach one's soul,she was over all nice and gentle,but so many habit of her'swere weird

she spent all of her time in detecting others,everyone in the house knew that there is less possibility to keep anything secret from her,she was long time widow and had three sons,she owned house and other property and this was a reason that her sons obeyed her even when it was not correct,

her eldest son left the house when her tow wives left him because of his mother's absolutely wrong behaviour,he got married third time and moved to other city,second son of her's had a relationship with a woman for many years and had even one boy and one daughter but had no courage to bring the woman in house or merry her to give her and kids rights,his girlfriend often used to fight and break the stuff of his hotel,

unluckily third son was married for more then 18 years and his wife was living in the same house without meeting her son for more then 12 years,when i saw her she was 30 years old very charming lady,her personality was impressive,in first look she was neat and beautiful,and after having her few sitting i found her wonderfully positive person,her eyes had a reflection of her inner peace,

when she shared her heart with me i was shocked to see the depth of positive attitude which gave her strength to survive in such stressful environment,she told me that she belong to a middle class family and her inlaws are very rich people,from the first day the behaviour of her mother in law showed that she is here just to fulfil the position and has no right to use anything according to her own will,she decided to go with the flow because as a woman she accepted the man her respected husband and the house as her own home which she can leave in one condition of DEATH,
her husband was a puppet in his mother's hand,and even in the earlier days of her marriage he used to sleep in separate room and came to her only when his mom let him to come,she said meanwhile her mother in law stayed outside their room waiting for her son,and it was too painful to bear when he left her alone after some time,

when she got pregnant she was hopeful that her husband will certainly change behaviourarranged doctors to put her uterus ,and brought a little boy in house ,she used to tell people that her daughter gave birth twins,he was 7 then and not allowed to be with the both sisters,oforld lady looked after him personally and feed him with fear and hate against her and her daughters,
his children,but when first daughter born she was accused for being good for nothing,and enemy of the family as she did not gave birth to a boy,with her second daughter her mother in law
since her second girl born ,she did not meet her husband,old lady watch over so carefully and when he returns in evening she stays with all the time,and during the night she sleeps on a sofa placed in lounge even they sleep in different stories she still has fear to loose her son,

she told me that in beginning thing were hard to bear though she was always a god's person and remain cool when see people like old lady around who enjoy humiliating others,she said I thinks people like my mother in law faces pretty stressed situations in life,and treated crucially by others,according to her the behaviour of old lady was the result of cruel behaviour of her late husband who married her to happy his father but never treated her lovingly as she was not highly educated and fashionable,to make his dream true he married a movie actress and moved another city after four year of marriage,

so she was living happily and bringing her kids up with positivity,i admire her for her faith and healthy attitude,otherwise i seen people suffering with self-pity and losing confidence,i dont know what you guys think about her but i respect her for her bravery friends.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

hey god

hey dear friends hope all is going amazing in your beautiful worlds,and everybody is enjoying a new change in climate,and ready to say warm well come to miss winter,each season has its own unique colour and we must say thanks for these blessings friends,god bless you all.




thanks for giving me this while,

thanks for life and thanks for smile,

thanks for being so around,


thanks for healing all my wound,

thanks for making realize,

has to fall,one day each rise,


thanks for keeping away from cheat ,

thanks for living in my beat,


thanks for family,thanks for health,


but you are my real wealth,



Saturday, September 17, 2011

a girl in the vally



sun was moving behind the hill slowly but its rays were still hot,everything was still and silent except caw caw of that lonely crow who was sitting on a odd looking tree which was half dead and half alive,

the cries of crow seemed strongly belong to this tragedy,he was sitting on a dead branch and his eyes were stick with green side where few lashing branches were seemed teasing him,

she was not sad but current atmosphere around made little dull and gloomy,even she knew that it was just a side effect of environment deep inside she felt her skill to enjoy this timely disappointment and fell on her chair to feel the depth of it,

behind her closed eyes there was an unfinished chain of such sad alone moments which brought no one along to share their burden,the moments when she desired to see a friend beside when her eyes are opened,

moments when she wished to feel a hand in her hands which can deliver her power to fight back when she feel so tired and about to give up the battle of life,

she felt stepping in the desert,where she is walking alone since centuries,without tasting a drop of water,under the sun,her throat was dry and tongue was like piece of sand,thrust made her life less,

suddenly she opened her eyes with some kind of noise,and saw the sky which now completely covered with black and grey cloud,some of them were so high but some layers were as down that seemed hugged the hills tightly,

whole scenery was changed,wind pour life and movement in everything around her,layer of lashing grass over hill was playing with wind joyfully,fresh air was playing with her hair,she took a deep breath as she want to hold inside the new recent gift of environment in deep of her soul,

she stood up in the window and spread her both arms widely,in that moment she had the feeling of peace and happiness,atmosphere gave her this realization as she has a friend,and this friend is NATURE which could not see her sad and alone,and gave her chance to feel the bright side of picture again,


she accepted the love of her friend and once again front of her open eyes there was a loooong chain of beautiful golden moments,when she suddenly found support of her friend when she desired,her soul became a bird floating over clouds and under the wet cheeks her lips got smile which enlighten the whole Vally.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

friendship



Today when I move the curtain,

I saw the smiling new sun,

Its light was fresh and smooth,

In a moment, it mend my mood,

My garden had so many blooms,

Air blown away, all my glooms,

With cup of tea ,on my rocking chair,

I found around me, everything fair,

I lay against ,and thought the day,

Yesterday,which had gone away,

Its sun looked stranger to me,

Things were as,were not meant to be,

Felt lonely under golden sky,

Thought what happened, to me and why,

It seemed, I will never be fine,

Forever,just pain was mine,

But see, its you again,

Who did not let,break up the chain,

Thank you, for holding my hands,

less,who plant in the sand.